I don't think I feel like posting about band farewell party, cause it reminds me on how useless am I when I was the overall i/c for it. realised lots of money was not accounted for when we went through the receipts. ): sob, I am really bad at handling money.

Till now, Ms Lam and the rest of the i/c s are still not sure where the money went to. I am feeling so terrible right now, because I had cause them to worry over the money. It was a great responsibility. when I was asked to take care of the money.

I feel so disappointed with myself. I really hope that time can just rewind back, I will try my best to do a good job. I really wish. ):

Have been pondering over stuffs this few days. I realised that I was always feeling lonely all the time, I often comfort myself that it was normal for one to feel lonely most of the time, but unfortunately I can't. It was so depressing that I often cry over it.

All this years, I have been trying to act cheerful with all the smiles and everything. Am I an emotional person? I dunno. Trying to act strong when I aren't.

I am not so sure why am I writing all these in my blog now.

This year was really different as compared to other years. I get to know more people, trying to open up myself, and approach others. I want to know how having friends were like. I enjoyed times I spent with my peers. Those were really moments I completely forget about my troubles. It was like they were super nice with me, it was great, but I don't think I know them well, there was still a gap in between me and my peers. Is there something wrong with me, that I never knew, that I can improve on? Was it that I was a selfish person, who never truly cares about my peers, and only myself? hais....

I am feeling all weird now. ):

My parents have been nagging at me a lot this year, and I was always rebelling and putting all the blames on them. I feel so angry with myself. guess I am really turning into another completely different person without realising. My parents were doing so for my own good. And what I did, was to complain and complain, never understanding why they were doing so. ):

Sorry mum. sorry dad.

I promise I will try my best to be the good girl that you all have wanted. I am never going to disappoint you again. I am never going to let you down, by giving up the hopes you put on me. I promise. X(

I love you, daddy and mummy!

I am turning 15 soon. It's time I need to change for the better. I have to be more understanding...

Many things have been happening recently. Time passes quickly. Hope that tomorrow will always be a better day.