Oh gosh... I can't believe that I've finally got the TIME to blog peacefully on a weekday. Wow!
To think that time is money, i should be studying for my Mid-year examinations, to pass O'levels, then A'levels, blah, blah....then get a high-paying job, retire and enjoy life
-.- *sorry I'm crapping again* To think that i might not even pass my O'levels *horrors!*
Secondary 3 life is sure scary, I'm starting to fail more than 4 test within 4 months in secondary 3? My mum's so gonna kill me, if she finds out that.
Wells... i am prepared for the worst...*take in a deep breathe*
Just blogging to update my blog... XP

I can't believe that I am actually feeling quite glad that CCA had stand down for MYE, though i am terribly missing my DARLING juniors and my HUBBY flute.
It's just like as if I could pause for awhile to take a deep breathe without being forced to continue running or whatever, maybe having too many leadership positions aren't really suitable for me... Being a student councillor, band major, section leader, English representative, life's sure busy for me. Let's hope I am able to manage all these for this whole year. 加油s!

Anyway, I'm in the orienteering dept (sub com) for LTC, feeling quite glad, because Kamini and Paul (maybe Huan Xian) are in the same dept. ((: l0lz.... hope that organising this year's LTC would be FUN! Can't wait for this Saturday recce at Sentosa with my department people. Hahas XD




It has been quite some time since I had someone whom I can share my happiness and problems with, therefore feeling a bit down nowadays. Smiling seem so difficult for me nowadays, forcing a smile would only result in me looking like I'm going to cry, happiness seem to have abandon me, something seem to be missing in my life. People might say that you need to find happiness and not the opposite... but, the word "happiness" seem to extinct in my life.

Am I the main reason for causing myself to be in such a state now. Maybe... ):
I can no longer differentiate what's happiness and what's sadness, my heart had turned cold. Sometimes, I don't even know whether I'm crying or laughing, it feels the same for me. Tears just keep flowing out of my eyes.



That Joanne from the past no longer exist.
It's another person standing right in front of you now.


I miss her. T_T