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Photo of the day @ Punggol Waterway

Right now, I'm having trouble falling asleep. There is so much on my mind. Should I go for NAFA and Lasalle open house later in the day? Am I'm ready for the future? Is Art really for me? Will I be accepted if I apply for it? Will I do well enough for A levels? Then for jobs, should I look for a job on my own rather than relying on recruit express which is offering me weird jobs? Am I a terrible friend? Is there something wrong with me? Am I still really childish as compared to my peers? Do I care more about myself than what I do for others around me? If so, what should I do to make up for it? Am I a lousy student? Where have all my determination gone to? Have I lost touch with my inner true self or whatever you call it? Am I able to face all the challenges in life? And all the thinking/worrying just goes on and on and on. All I'm wishing right now is that there is someone I can confide in right now, someone who is able to guide me through my thoughts and concerns in life. Someone who understands how weird a person I am yet not judge. Indeed, I do feel blessed to have great friends who do care about me and a family who is always there for me but somehow I feel so lost in this real world. There are so many things I want to forget and pretend it never happened, yet again and again they haunt me both in my dreams and my everyday life. Some facts can and will never be changed I know but is there something I can do just to make it all seem better? In the end, I know it is me, myself and I that I should learn to depend on. In short, be independent. However, I have disappoint myself too much these few years that I'm starting to dread myself.
Haha, I guess I'm confusing/worrying those who read the above? It had been quite some time since I wrote this much in this space here and fortunately, I do feel better after pouring all my thoughts out. It is just one of those moody days of mine again, so please don't mind me. Hopefully, I will be a better person after this yea? Thanks for reading, if you did.

Goodnight.